Anyone who's been to a lair event (or on these boards for a long time) knows you are a stand-up, hospitable and transparent guy. Sometimes people aren't who we think they are. It sucks. But it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. Maybe we should have some Stones and talk about all the people we've chased away from this place
I thought I had it rough. Blf sensitivity meter is way too high. As is his rebellious nature. That's bad combo. Leads to many psychological complexes. Then you end up alone on an island because you became a complex. I can relate to you blf, but you are spinning hard and need to chill. Before it gets worse. It gets worse. So get help. Talk to friends that have skill to listen. If you don't have them then listen to others. But don't fight with them. Don't argue. It's better to get angry here and there, get issue resolved, then get over it. Hey I'm just barely remembering this. Because a bad thing that happens is oblivion. You lose yourself and forget how to live because you believe others are living "wrong". If you persist life will beat you up and chew you out. Even the bible says that. Trust me. Learn now before you get too lost to learn at all. I'm taking baby steps myself because I am a hypersensitive who would like everyone to be nice and kind. And as a kid I thought it was my job to take out the bad guys. That eventually makes you similar to the bad guy, or worse. If you smoke and drink stop for a bit and reflect on the people that love you. Before they run away from you or you from them. Figure what makes your sensitivity take a hit. And cut it out. For instance stop reading too much into things. It will eventually make you look at your friends weirdly as you hear them talk. And you will think they are being fake. Remember that those around you will suffer your foolishness. But if you love them why make them suffer?
"Fine" is a bit of an overstatement. Everyone is worth meeting, I just don't want you to get your hopes up with such a lofty expectation.
sound advice rube, all of it but you may be mis-diagnosing this particular case not all smokers/drinkers have psychological disorders, and not all people with issues are smokers/drinkers sometimes people are wired funny; out of touch, broken their disorders may stem from something traumatic, or (in some cases) from nothing at all not all broken people can be cured/fixed; especially when their preference is denial, self-pity and self-loathing they prefer to play the victim -- that whole "me against the world" mantra deep down they want to be that way, they thrive on it they can't/won't change because they don't want to instead of taking at look inside themselves they lash out in anger and venom it's their defense mechanism, and it's much easier than being accountable/accepting responsibility for their actions
That's why I'm warning blf to get help. Before he becomes a worse person. I'm trying to become a better person blf, it's hard but you need to start young when it's easier. Don't waste your life. Don't be a rebel, learn to fit in before you don't fit. I started like you and ended up in lots of trouble. Just relax, then work hard. Don't give into your temptations. Call on God to help. And when you sin ask god for forgiveness. Then continue life.
FWIW, I've honed my pork smoking skills even more.......................... This from yesterday. 16 hours over cherrywood....